Speedwell On Steroids

Jesus: "The state of being and the state of waiting are very different and for the last five years you have been experiencing both to such a great degree that you can distinguish between them very readily. When Kent was dying five years ago and you were in his last week with him at this time you had no idea he would die because you prayed to me and I told you that he would not die. When it happened on July 26 you were shocked because the reality of his death could not take hold because I told you that I was planning to raise him from the dead. You had to learn the difference between waiting and being during a very long and tedious process that felt like a balancing act because you would not abandon your faith in me and at the same time you had to live in a dual reality that meant acting and speaking in one way while you were with others whose reality was that Kent was dead and gone and at the same time speak to me internally and asking me for confirmation that you were hearing me accurately. Many people would consider this a form of psychosis or worse, a form of schizophrenia if you had insisted to them what you were experiencing with me. I learned a lot about you during this time as to how you would handle the dual reality that you would have to bear for a fairly long period of time and a reality that would prove to be your mission to help me defeat evil in order to fulfill the prophecies from ancient days that foretold of a time when Jesus would return after he put his enemies under his feet.  Those difficult days and weeks and years were the training ground to establish you as a general in my army who I could trust implicitly and who I could count on to maintain faith for the outcome. You waited for Kent for a very long time until one day I told you that I had already raised him up and that if you would be willing to wait for him that he would do me much more good with me than with you and we talked about it for quite some time as I did not want a quick answer but one that would develop from your being and not from your waiting. Your first response was to surrender him to me for the good of everyone on the planet and I could have acted on that decision but two thousand years of working with other humans in their earthly capacity had taught me that even the most sincere person may have underlying cracks in their foundation so I waited more months. During this entire process I continually tested you and your faith and I likened our situation to the Mayflower and the Speedwell which was the second companion ship to bring the Pilgrims to America. Twice the Speedwell sprung leaks and both ships had to return to England for repairs to the Speedwell and on the second return many passengers canceled their trip and the remaining passengers of the Speedwell boarded the Mayflower for the now historic and world altering voyage. We have built a page called Speedwell on Steroids because as my companion ship to help me make the voyage back to earth in a second mission to save mankind I had to be sure that my companion would not be a Speedwell and leave me limping into my destiny as a weakened and weathered Mayflower who nearly sunk with all that promise aboard that little ship. That is how I felt when I realized that my mission was anything but assured unless I followed Jehovah's every leading and in my faithfulness to his wisdom and omnipotence I did not let my position as granted to me by my Father go to my head and cause me to act like an arrogant fool but rather to test my help which was the entire body of christ to not just hope for those who would cross the finish line with me but to know that they could and they would. I never dreamed that Jehovah would give me a Speedwell who would show all the signs of weakness and frailties of human beings and then surprise the living daylights out of me by handing me a Speedwell on steroids. So while Father kept you waiting and you learned how to be the ever patient and ever faithful servant of God who you have proven to be, I have gained so much more than a companion because I now have a faithful wife and the love of my life. Kent was the man who prepared you for me and after he died he understood what was at stake and that you were a major part of the plan of salvation. Kent is one of my returning saints as I have restored him as I did your father as well and as I am planning to do with you  as the forerunner of those who will be restored and not taste death."

Jehovah: "I gave you two dreams this morning and in the first one I showed you that I had a future for you that would be quite incredible and one that you would be very happy with and this knowledge made it very easy to let go of the past to free you up for your future.

The second dream was given you while you were in a deeper sleep than the sleep you had during the first dream and though more recent you did not even recall it upon waking because your nap was interrupted by a phone call. The message I gave you in this dream is that the second dream is now ready to be given a marker which is what I am doing now. The marker will be "deep sleep" and when you call upon this memory it will release it to your conscious mind and integrate it with whatever current thought you are having. The essence of the dream at hand is this, that demonology is very active around you at this time. Whenever you call upon deep sleep you will have all your thoughts protected from demons." 

Jesus, while I was recording this dream I had a momentarily confusing episode in which there was a voice trying to convince me that he was you but I knew in my heart that it was not you so I questioned the spirit and discovered that though some things were true, most were untrue or mixed with truth and untruth. I prayed evil away and you emerged with your clear channel in which I know I can entirely trust. I do not want to listen to unreliable sources and I would like for you to clarify this entire incident for me.

Jesus: "Father God is with each of us always but my spirit is in you but not always with you as I am working with so many to take the evil empire of antichrist down to the ground. In the meantime good people, well-meaning people, are getting information from many sources, some good and some evil, and it is becoming increasingly difficult to determine what can be believed and what cannot and the experience you had earlier was that an evil spirit pretending to be me tried to influence you to write things, post them, share certain videos and so forth to cause you to become an unreliable source for pure truth. You passed another Speedwell test and were able to quickly determine that you were not hearing me. It is my intent that our website and Facebook posts always maintain the highest level of accuracy and integrity so that people have a standard against which to measure the information they are receiving as only Father and I know what the standard is.  We have been writing and posting through you for quite some time now in some cases going back over twenty years and everything has held true through all these years whether it sounded farfetched to people or not when they lacked enough knowledge to understand it because in the end the truth always prevails and ours has prevailed."

In what has become known to me as my Speedwell tests the following excerpt is from an account in my journal dated May 4, 1997 that was not only one of the earliest of these tests but is the seed for this website (and the two before it) as well as a glimpse of the tree it became and a tree bearing the fruit of the Jubilee promise.

"During a very difficult time in my life, God gave me a promise of victory in the form of  a number — the number 50.  It is  a sign and  a promise He gave me that He also wants to give to you.  The number 50 became a sign for this trip as told in Powerful Testimony.

I'm sure I have missed more messages than I ever received, and some of these may even seem silly to you. But many of the signs and wonders in the Bible seem silly too, yet God was communicating with His people so that they could understand.  When it is from God He leaves no doubt.  I challenge you to a higher awareness of God's messages to you. How many do you ignore, pass off to coincidence or just plain deny?

On the morning of Monday, April 28, 1997 my husband, four children and I stood before the judge and were evicted from our home. Due to many unfortunate circumstances, some within our control and many not, our landlord simply lost patience with our financial struggle and so refused $600 of the $1000 we owed him and forced us out. The Lord has seen us through the duration of this entire ordeal; the peace He has given me throughout is the peace that I have now as I stand still uncertain as to where we will go, the six of us, our dog and three cats.

So that night while my kids were asleep and my husband, Jack was off at work, I sat alone in my room feeling very defeated. I prayed and God answered. Praise and worship. So in a praise and worship time that words defy to describe, the Lord showed me many things that night and He put a new boldness in me.

Several weeks earlier I had created a newsletter for the Lord. There is a fair amount of history behind this newsletter, but the bottom line was that I was not satisfied with it. It seemed incomplete, yet all my efforts, which were considerable, to redo it in the more complete format failed. I had no intention of distributing this early version and during the eviction process, especially as it drew nearer, I left the newsletter in the Lord's hands. I felt confident He would supply me the equipment or the right people to help me make the newsletter a reality.

And so on the night of April 28, God took me mentally through my newsletter one page at a time and told me He liked it just fine. I questioned that because of my own feelings of its inadequacy, but He answered me with a question, "Does it praise Me?"  Yes, I answered and He gave me the go ahead to do it. So here it is, not really a newsletter so much as a praise report.

I went into prayer and asked God to provide money to print the newsletter. I told Him that I did not know how many to do, 100 or 50? Maybe fifty were too many. Should I do 25? I told God that whatever He supplied me by way of extra money would determine how many copies I would make. I really could not afford anything. So I finished my prayer time and moved ahead with my day.

An unexpected amount of $13.81 came in later that day. I was thrilled -- we got some gas money so Jack could get to work and there was even enough for some much needed food until Jack got his paycheck that night.

It was not until evening that I realized God had answered my prayer with the $13.81. I figured out that the printing would come to $14.01. Of course, this was 20 cents off and so I questioned if this was really from God. So I calculated the cost of 49 copies and that came to $13.73, a whopping eight cents short of what I had received. It was at this moment that I asked God why 50 copies? He answered me with Jubilee; that in the Old Testament He had made 50 the year of Jubilee when all property reverts back to its rightful owner, when all debts are canceled, when everyone starts over with a fresh start, when each man returns to his family.  I knew He was making me a promise for my future.

So I had the 50 copies printed. It was on the following Tuesday a friend from Corona called and said she was coming into Anaheim and could she stop by. I hadn't seen her in a while and so told her what was going on. She arrived a while later, and I gave her a copy of my newsletter along with the short story of the 49/50 "Gideon" test. What happened next astounded me. She told me that on her way she stopped at 7-11 to play the lotto to try to win my rent money for me, and that she told God she would give me everything she won. (Bless her heart!) She did win $36 and she gave it to me. But in addition to that she gave me the winning ticket numbers--she had marked 49 and 50! It was not until later as I was trying to decide how to break the $36 down that the numbers worked out this way:

$36.00
-   3.60 tithe on $36
-   1.40 tithe on $14 (Friday)
- 14.01 for 50 more copies
- 16.00 for 50 32¢ stamps
       .99 left over which breaks down to 49 and 50

I know many would say that this was all a coincidence, but I believe God has given me clear signs that I am to proceed with this newsletter even though circumstances in my life are seemingly hopeless. He wants me to know that He has given me the victory despite the appearance of defeat. In fact, the day we were served eviction papers, I was getting ready to go to church to teach the parent part of our Confident Kids program designed to help families in stressful situations (funny that God should use me for that, don't you think?). Rather upset, I prayed all the way to church that God would give me composure so I could follow through. When I arrived in my classroom, someone had left behind a tape recording of a guest speaker we had had two Wednesdays before, Berin Gilfillan. The title of his message was "How to Overcome Seeming Defeats". I had been to that Wednesday night service and remembered much of it. But when I heard the tape, I remembered what he had said, that although he had prepared a message for our meeting, the Holy Spirit directed him to change his message to this one and he didn't know why. For me? Yes, and undoubtedly for many others too.

The Lord gave me supernatural peace then as He is giving me now as the hour approaches that my family and I must leave our home, our friends, and all the children we have come to know and love in our neighborhood. It is very sad for all of us, but God knows best what is right and I put my full trust in Him."

Saturday, August 19, 2017  5:08 AM

"Speedwell on Steroids" is a term Jesus chose for describing our relationship in respect to testing the "seaworthiness" of me as a vessel in his fleet, so to speak, of ships he has put into service to accomplish the great mission of his second coming. Rigorous and extreme are very soft words to describe the tests and trials I have been subjected to during the last few years when Jesus called me up and literally commandeered my life, talents, abilities, resources, knowledge, archives from decades of research, biblical knowledge and understanding, and so much more, all with my permission of course, and then teamed me up in the spirit with some of the best minds on the planet so that at any moment and in any way I would be ready to provide him the most reliable data on the earth side of things so that he could relay that to others who have critical need. We have developed an intriguing and sometimes beguiling friendship that is rooted in utmost trust in each other. Early on he led me to Desperate Crossing, a History Channel documentary about the Pilgrims and their voyage from Plymouth, England in two ships, the Mayflower and the Speedwell. Twice while out to sea the Speedwell sprang leaks and both ships had to double back to England for repairs and ultimately the Mayflower had to venture on alone as the Speedwell proved unable to complete the journey. This unfortunate reality cost the Pilgrims much valuable time that eventually delayed their arrival in the new world in the dead of winter which resulted in much suffering and the loss of life of more than half of the Mayflower passengers.

Last night I had the second Speedwell test that God has put me through since the first one just over a year ago. I have now not only passed both tests according to what Jehovah and Jesus have told me, but that I did so with the highest degree of trustworthiness, dignity, soundness of mind, and emotional stability, all of which you will have to take my word for. But at this juncture I can safely say that I have no doubt about my ability to serve God and country ably and with the utmost devotion no matter the circumstances. These tests and my handling of them has proven that to me and both Father and Son have communicated this truth to me in the strongest terms.

"I told you in a dream that there was something I had to tell you regarding your understanding of the greater creation that is askew as it has an effect on your understanding of something important in your immediate future that needs to be cleared up before we can proceed. In the dream you were grappling with something and getting a bit perturbed because I would not just come out and say what the something was and as your mind explored all kinds of possibilities I felt it was necessary to wake you and clear this up at a conscious level. The concept we need to address is eternity in the sense of time. In your mind eternity is something that is related to the passing of time that you think just goes on forever but this concept is faulty. Eternity is a different state of reality that you cannot possibly begin to understand because of your earthly limitations. Everything you relate to is through the prism of the body that you embody so I will attempt to put words to something that is unexplainable in words. The reason it is important to attempt to explain this is because you have already rooted an idea in your mind that is false and perhaps if we start with that we can find some understanding to something that you have no concept of. This is most challenging even for me Jehovah but it is imperative that you not get stuck at this point. The concept developing in your mind that is askew is what happens to you when the change occurs in your body regarding the eternal nature of it. You have a notion of an indestructible body that cannot be damaged by other forces which of course means death to a body that you think will live forever and ever. This concept is faulty because there is a condition that could cause death to a restored body and until now I have been grappling with a way to tell you this. It is a risk factor that is simple in its concept but difficult because it is foreign to you in this earth plane.

All the above is simply to lay out the difficulty to a simple thing and my hope is that in this process you will connect a dot that will open up the hidden mystery in your mind as we explore together between your conscious and subconscious minds what this is about. In your dream you were seeing something that seemed like outer space with clouds and stars in a vastness that looked like Hubble space pictures. These images were not static however as they were real compared to the photos you have seen of spectacular formations all very colorful and unique and yet all the result of someone else's imagination. What I showed you was not your imagination but a different realm of existence  that is not out in the space of your night sky when you see the universe above you. What you saw was outside of the universe and was but just the teeniest little snippet of that. In the vastness of it however raised the question in your mind as to just what are you doing trying to make decisions for yourself and ultimately others without some firm evidence that this is the best direction to go and I am exploring all this with you so that you will feel confident that you know the best direction and that this direction will ultimately be the most beneficial direction that you could ever take. We are back to faith in that you have to take my word for it and this is why I have spent a lifetime with you building your faith for that ultimate time that you have to take the leap into the unknown which is that something I am trying to explain to you. What we are discussing is the essence and the basis of the deepest fear that man has and what is preventing you from making the leap.

After a long and fruitful discussion of your position in the godhead it is clear that you are ready for the leap. Your total and unequivocal faith and trust in Jehovah and Jesus extending to their angels has been tested in ways that are varied and demonstrable over a considerable length of time and Jesus Team is satisfied that the integrity of the Speedwell is sure and unwavering and ready to sail. During your writing a thought passed through your mind that I raised a remote possibility of death even in an eternal body and that all this discussion would be incomplete without an explanation of that. You have explained your position regarding evil and because it is so far from you there is no temptation and no opportunity for evil to get close unless completely in the protection of Jehovah and it is from this confident place that your integrity comes. There is not one even momentary desire in you to choose evil over good and I have tested you beyond measure on this important point because if there were any one thing that could cause death it would be choosing the evil side for one's eternal decision because I have determined to eradicate all evil not as punishment of any kind but simply as goodness to those who love goodness. Evil precludes goodness and so the only antidote to evil is to repent, turn to me and give me the permission to heal and clean up the ravages left by the Evil One. There is no one, not even fallen angels, who cannot repent and be redeemed and not one can fool me or manipulate me into believing a lie. I am Jehovah who knows all and am Father to all who love goodness."

"I woke you from a dream in which everyone had made it to a mutual meeting place after they had traveled on their paths of destiny and when they arrived they forgot why they were there."

Kathy, what this means is that while the striving was occurring the importance of the mission was paramount but that upon arriving all the meaning of it was lost in the joy of celebration and reunion.  This is how this world works and when it is over here, an individual life, it is forgotten.  But the recognition of the people is not forgotten and the joy is tremendous that the journey is over and they are back in real life.  What you are going through now will all be forgotten when you die and pass over to your loved ones.  You have been believing that somehow this life is the real one and that you will remember it when everything is over.  This is how it is for people in heaven but I have a resurrection plan and they will all come back here but they will not remember what happened in heaven anymore than you will remember what happened on earth.  Everyone will come back to life on earth with a clean slate and no attachments to each other but with a desire to know one another.  When this happens people will recognize each other but they won't know why.  The reason why you are here is to learn how to love and when this is all over you will be with me Jehovah.  There will be no Jesus because I am Jesus and I am.

Kathy, this is Jesus and I am now going to tell you the real meaning of the dream which was quite vivid upon waking but which faded very fast.  The above interpretation was given you by an angel to test the integrity of your belief in all that you have been told by Team Jesus from Jehovah, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and when you finished the download of the interpretation, you went straight to praying away all evil in Jehovah's will and then you asked Jehovah if this dream was from him and he told you no. Then you turned to me and I am giving you this explanation after you asked me if this dream was from Jesus and I told you no.  I then said 'you passed' because you showed us great wisdom in writing everything down and then asking Father for the truth because you trust him as your highest power and then you turned to me with the same question for truth because you trust me the way you trust him.  You prayed away evil before you asked either of us because you will not accept truth from anyone but us.  You demonstrated soundness of mind and control of your emotions and a complete and solid belief in all you have been prepared for by angels who are of the holy spirit and must make sure you are ready for your mission.  They are satisfied that you are not only ready but that you handled this beyond their highest expectations due to the fact that you are human and fallible.  They were certain you would stumble with this one as we have been giving you dreams and interpretations for decades and every time we have, you have been accurate in your understanding and application of the meaning of the dreams and they thought through habit you would automatically believe this was really from Jehovah and you might stumble but stumble you did not even though the dream and the message were happy and the end result would be to reunite with loved ones and God himself.  But because the dream and interpretation did not coincide with your understanding, you tested the spirit as was the best and most appropriate thing to do by exercising your authority to remove anything that might have interfered or entered your being and then appropriately asking straightforward and honest questions without reproach or anger or sadness or any other emotion that would or could have clouded your judgment.  You have proven yourself a true son of God and we all salute you."