Struggling To Find Meaning In Life

Jesus: "I have many diligent people following me as christians who can see the antichrist but not how he fits into American government and other diligent people following me as political gurus who do not realize the spiritual nature of Deep State and others who are diligently following me as warriors who are very aware of the war being waged against America and who see the enemy as other humans. Of course there are individuals who see all of this or parts of this but would be hard pressed to articulate the entire scenario of proportions so huge that they span thousands of years and the whole of human history and I am the only one who can speak to all of it and how everything connects to everything else and I have dictated all my thoughts and words to a trusted servant who understands nearly every aspect of what I have taught her and who can hear every word I utter to even include punctuation of my choosing. It is time for those who think they have the whole picture puzzle put together to realize they have one part of the picture but there are more and for those who choose to see an even larger picture I have written an entire website devoted to doing just that."

Saturday, September 15, 2018  8:45 AM

During my life there have been so many wonderful people wanting to know how to talk to God because they know that I do and that I get answers but none of them know to what extent that this is true. Many years ago when my children were teenagers I met a neighborhood boy who stole my heart when he rode his bike all the way to our new home a few miles away from our old neighborhood and he gave me a token gift of a brass rose which I still have and treasure because in his sweet and sensitive way he showed me he loved me as a friend he could trust even though I was many years his senior. We lost touch with each other until one day when I was visiting my daughter in Temecula and she told me that Alejandro's wife had just passed away. I just watched his video on 9/11 and it brought me to tears as I am writing this because his wife died two weeks after my husband died and it happened while I was in the mortuary with my husband's body as I was praying for him to be raised from the dead. When my daughter told me about his wife Christin I knew in my heart that I was supposed to pray for her to be raised also. She died in the hospital where she and Alejandro had been visiting their premature baby daughter who was soon to be released to go home with them. Because his and my grief paths were so intertwined and God was showing me how he intended to raise them both up I went to church and asked to speak to the congregation which my pastor allowed and that day I told them all about Christin and of course they all knew Kent and I asked them to pray for both of them to be raised from the dead. No one spoke to me afterwards or indicated that they would pray for this but my pastor did something that day that meant the world to me because after I spoke he spoke to this very issue and because I do not have a recording I am relying on God to search the archives and give me his words that day and he has agreed to do so and is what follows: "What Kathy just said about raising the dead is true and there is a verse in the bible where Jesus clearly taught his disciples to raise the dead and there is another verse at the end of the chapter that states that Jesus told his disciples to teach their disciples everything that he told them to do." When my pastor spoke those words in what I believe was a two-fold message he honored God and God has honored him. The two-fold message was first that we honor Jesus and let others know what he expects his followers to know and that they should do the same and second that he has a plan to raise the dead and if didn't then why is it in the Bible?

God: "This entire website is devoted to helping others find meaning in their lives and the resurrection of the dead is a very good place to start. If everyone takes Alejandro's advice and lives their best life then everyone will move faster and more easily into a life worth living that each one is personally inspired to live not just for a few decades but forever. Jesus came to bring life and life without measure."

Some strange things happened almost 24 hours ago that caused me to sit up awake all night after a short sleep of perhaps an hour and by the time morning rolled around I started to feel very sleepy and after a few more hours I finally slept for about 2 hours followed by a waking period of about 7 hours when some things in my consciousness were starting to feel strange and I went upstairs and slept for about 2 hours again. Upon waking the house was very still and I feel just as still as the house.

I have been observing natural progression of the needs of people and have noticed that they do not seem to start with the outermost thing and then each one going inward is the next most important need and so forth until the innermost need is met when the very essence of God meets every need and the satisfaction of his love permeates through every need until the entire body is satisfied. Most people think the natural progression is to start with the innermost need first whatever that is and identifying each need going outward until the outermost expression of satisfaction is found somewhere out in the farthest reaches of the universe  and perhaps even to a God that is beyond that. My experience after living most of my life with the second model of satisfying needs was to discover the first model and that as needs were identified going inward I finally found true satisfaction of all my needs by going from the outside in and discovering that God is that most satisfying need and that he is right with me all the time ready to talk and to show me things and to entertain me and to show me how to find the most satisfaction of my other needs whether they are the simple necessities such as food and drink or the most unknowable such as how life works.

Yesterday he identified the last thing that I was holding on to that I determined needed to be surrendered to God and I surrendered it.  He showed what it was but he did not tell me what to do with it but it was in the time that I spent with him that in very simple ways he showed me what needed to be done and why and how something that I needed very much to be able to complete my earthly mission in this life was no longer needed and would now become a hindrance to me rather than a help.  It was this process of surrender that caused me to experience such a strange day that when it was all said and done I discovered what mattered most and as always it comes back to God within me who supplies all my needs and satisfies all my desires and who floods me with love and wellbeing and hope that all people will discover the truth about Jehovah.

Jesus: "The last resistance has been spent against God who has gently and carefully led us to the point of surrender and we have handed his creation back to him with all respect and love that is due him and he receives us with all the love a father can have for his children. As we relax in this blessed surrender we know we are safe in his hands and that he is guarding our world and looking forward to all his children coming home. We are now free to grow and to play and to finally fully enjoy the paradise that God has given us."